Just another manic friday...

Okay so I am sitting here at 8:46 in the morning trying to put on a brave face. It is absolutely pouring outside, so that is calming my nerves a bit.

Today is the day that I have planned to embark on a very long and hard journey. Today is the day that I become a non-smoker. It has been an hour since I had my last smoke and I am already freaking out; not because I usually have a smoke every hour, but because I know that it was my last one.

This time I am not going to tell anybody for the first couple days so there is not as much pressure. Last time....didn't go so well.

Although I feel like the days may go by very slow from now until...I don't know when, I am feeling very good about this. I feel like if there was any time that I could do this, it's now.

Changing my diet to a healthier one has already got me feeling better, and as I was making sure to pick up food with no additives or preservatives in it at the grocery store; I realized that it was kind of pointless if I was going to continue to smoke.....so here I am.

If I don't do this today I will never do it.

Wish me luck and I will keep posting!

CCTCP